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New CD’s: Reviews coming!

August 19, 2008 — 1 Comment
 

I cant wait to get into these and review themI got a bunch of new CD’s this week. A few will be reviewed on this blog and the rest over at my other home The Worship Community. Check out the reviews I currently have up of: Joel Auge and Klaus

What did I get this week?

  • New plumb CD
  • Prerelease of Lincoln Brewsters new on
  • new Charlie Hall
  • New Crowder CD/DVD

I can’t wait to get into this.

New tomlin is coming soon. I hope it’s good

Sunday Setlist

August 19, 2008 — 2 Comments
 

Here is las sundays set list

I am Yours (Take my life) – michael neal/traditional

Be Glorified – By me
Bless His name – Sanchez
Everlasting God – Brown

Communion
O Praise HIm – Crowder
Healer -

Friend of God – Israel.

This was a great set. I also showed the testimony video for the healer song.

Thanks to drew for the chart to I am Yours

AGAIN BUY THE MICHAEL NEALE CD….brilliant!

Mancation: Day 3

August 13, 2008 — 3 Comments
 

COMING SOON…sorry back to the grind which means a ton of work waiting on my desk. and 30 pages of design to get to. :)

Videos coming and a story about a golfing fox.

If you are interested…Are ya?

 

I personally needed to get away so I could refocus. I have been very agitated, negative, bitter, and sarcastic. Mostly I have been dissatisfied. I seem to be not content with anything. If I get a guitar I need another. If my wife kisses me I need 3-13 more. If i have a good day with my kids I decide it wasn’t good enough. I have been battling with my work as well. I am in a rock and a hard place with being a stay at home dad, not doing that job very well and at the same time it is impossible to get new business with 3 kids in the house. I struggle with the fact my wife is a better mom. My insecurities get the best of me. I have been married for almost 11 years yet still think about guys my wife dated 13 years ago and feel like I done match up. I am amazed even to this day she married me.

It has been a day of fun, but I am constantly seeking these few days. I am praying God teaches me how to be content, but not complacent. Satisfied, but not stationary. Secure in who God says I am so I can be the man my wife thinks she married not the man I actually was. I need to find joy in the little things. I need to be able to focus on the good with the kids and stop harping on the negative. Is this easy? Hell no! But I have been getting more and more negative and I can’t let that happen.

There is a plumb-line in a Christian mans life. You have to measure yourself to Jesus as the plubline. He was a man of compassion not negativity. He was full of love not bitterness. I served others. He saw the good where others could see no good.

I spoke to my youth group about the story of the woman with the blood issue. She sought Jesus and reached for his hem so she would be healed. I kind of feel like thats why I am taking this trip. i need to get rid of this crap.

Healer song says. “I believe Your my portion” I am hooked on this song mostly because of this line. I belive is not good enough for me. Yeah I believe He is my portion, but it seems putting that into action is so much different.

Why is it so hard to let God have all of us? To put ourselves into his hands? I worship a God who put the created earth and breathed the stars into existence yet I can’t seem to trust Him in my family, job, and life.

My wife, who is absolutly amazing deserves better than me. She deserves a guy who is in shape, is attractive, and just has it together. Instead she chose me. Do we fight? of course. Do we annoy eachother sometimes? of course. Do I want anybody else. NO WAY! I am satisfied, but I refuse to be stationary. I have to keep working on our marraige. She deserves it. She took a chance on me.

My boys are the cutest kids in the world. We have been having issues with anger in our house and I know that much of my additude in life has spilled over into my kids. They deserve better. They deserve to see the glass half full. I need to teach them that. To see the good in things.

I seem to have been sitting on my spiritual ass and it’s time to get off of it. I don’t know how I will make money with being a stay at home dad with 3 kids. I don’t know how I will make time to lose weight. I don’t know how I will ever stop wondering how my wife could actually love a guy like me. I don’t know what is going to happen with my hope for full time minstry. I don’t know why I have the gifts of negativity, sarcasm, and procrastination. I don’t know if clients of mine are going to resign thier contracts. I don’t know how to fulfill the dreams and visions God has placed in my heart…etc etc.

I just don’t know

But I am determined to have REAL faith in my God, the starbreather, and lay all of this in his hands. My family deserves it, I deserve it, and God wants it.

Pray for my Gorgeous wife. Pray for my amazing kids. They are truely gifts from a great God.

Mancation: Day 2

August 12, 2008 — 1 Comment
 

Day 2 of Mancation with Rich (husband to Lori) and Matt.

We went to bed way too late because Matt and I are addicted to our computers. I am dealing with this of course. Therapy doesn’t seem to be working though.

I woke up in the morning and realized that it was 8am. This is almost two hours later than I normally wake up. Was it my cozy bed? uh I don’t think so…I just slept in. I walk out of my room and see Rich standing there who has been waiting for Matt and I to wake up because he was bored to tears.

Matt woke up and said “Holy crap I have a bad back, but with this bed everything but my back hurts.”

Rich “uh…lets get breakfast.”

So we showered and then headed to our complimentary breakfast. Slab O Eggs…yum

Forcast for our wonderful day of golf. RAIN! We called to the course and they said it’s great right now so we went down and played in pouring rain 8 holes. We were drenched and the balls barely rolled. Matt played 3 of the 8 holes. I think rain scares him. I’m not sure.

At hole #4 the ranger there said to us. ” what are you guys stupid! why are you playing in this kind of rain.”

when we were done it was time to get changed into dry clothes. So we went to the hotel and changed. We went out the door to go get some lunch when something hit us. THE SUN! Thats right. the sun was out and it wan’t raining. What in the! Ok deep breaths. One of the reasons to go on this mancation was to get rid of some of the negativity. Some of us are doing better than others, but the venture is not over yet.

We went to a pizza place called Town Spa. What kind of name is that for a pizza joint? Rich swore by it so we went and it was great. Then onto Newbury Comics and Guitar Center (aka Meca).

Many hours have passed now and we needed to get dinner so we went to the melting pot. I have been wanting to go there for 7 years now and it was awesome. Fondue restaraunt and we not only had a great time of fellowship but awesome food.

two hours later (yes 2 hours) we went to visit rich’s old stomping grounds and got to meet his parents.

Now we are back at the hotel awaiting what kind of things are before us for our final day of mancation. More Golf? More rain? Prayer? Soul seraching? Gocarts? Who knows…You will just have to wait till tomorrow night.

It sounds like my family had a great day too. Dentist visits and bike rides.